when life knocks you down

last night a friend of mine called, she told me how depressed she is on all the workloads from school. she had been reading all day long and still couldn't understand a thing of what she was reading. she explained about a class that she failed in.

i was actually shocked to catch her calling me in the middle of the night, crying, stressing out. i know her as someone very intelligent and mature. she works in one of the most prestigious government office. got a prestigious scholarship and also got accepted in a really good university for her masters degree. i never knew that she could be inconfident with herself.

i ever felt this way, just a month ago. where i keep asking 'what am i doing here?'. thinking that i don't deserve having what i have now simply cause i feel i'm a failure. i usually think i'm stupid, the stupidest. i was so close to giving-up, like going back to my country, cutting off the scholarship. but i'm lucky to be in a supportive environment.

now, i still often doubt myself, my capabilities and everything. but that call kinda reminded me that i'm not the only one having issues. there are tons of people out there having a really bad problem, they end up fine, they cope with it. well, thats life..full of challenge. see these challenges as something fun, without it life is flat. enjoy the rollercoaster.

i wish one day when i'm back to my low points, i will read this and i'd probably feel much better about myself.